Friday Starts at 7:01 am

I slept in a little bit today, even though I had an important meeting this morning. Last night, I remember reaching to set the alarm clock on my phone and then I only remember the darkness of being swallowed by the sleepy.

Luckily, my meeting wasn’t until 11:00 am, so I had several hours to wake up and worry about the things that could go wrong.

I am getting better about not worrying, though, so I can confidently say that this morning, I worried probably 60% less than I would normally have. Even though worrying is my super power, it was really nice to worry so much less than I usually would have.

Besides, I have been busting my ass on this project, so I almost had nothing to even try to worry about. Aside from wanting to show off a little bit, I had done everything that I could to get the project to the current point. I could do nothing else, aside from turning into a genie.

My meeting went REALLY WELL and I even got free lunch out of the deal. When I left to go to the meeting and threw my bag in the car, I said to myself, “When this meeting is over, it’ll be 2:00 pm, and I will GET  to clean up before bed!”

I said this with a real excitement. I have been so busy that I actually looked forward to cleaning up. That’s kind of sad. But, I do like how I unconsciously phrased cleaning up in a positive way, something that I wouldn’t usually do. My efforts to become a tiny bit more grateful and conscious every day are paying off. I’m thankful that I’m becoming more grateful.

At the end of the meeting, I drove around the corner and exhaled. I didn’t want the client to see me sitting in the car yelling HALLELUJAH, so I drove out of eye sight. I then drove home, and proceeded to work more. I sent them some more work, and at about 6:00 pm, I decided it was time to order some GrubHub (don’t judge me).

I ate my Thai takeout and watched “The Devil Wears Prada.” Have you ever seen that? The end where Meryl Streep gives a little bit of a smile and then sarcastically hisses, GOOOOO to her driver, ah, that darn Meryl Streep. She got me right in the feels with that one.

What does it say about me that I was kind of rooting for Meryl Streep the entire time, not that she needed rooting for, but I should say that she was my favorite character and I could relate to her feelings of annoyance with people and her overall career drive. That probably says that I’m a terrible person, but ah, to hell with it. We need devils to appreciate the angels and besides, no one is a true devil or an angel (watch the damn movie if you don’t believe me, somehow).

I was exhausted by the end of the day, but in a weird way. I still feel good and have a little energy; I just needed a little break from work. I might treat myself to a movie tomorrow, before getting back to work.

Today was a good day, a good Friday. I’m thankful that I woke up and had this day. I could have had a lot of other days, but I’m glad that I had the one that I had.

AND THIS IS THE END OF THE 5 DAY GET OUTTA BED CHALLENGE

What’s next? What challenge do you think I should do? Leave a comment below.

Until tomorrow, my friends…

7:03 AM

I slept a little too well last night.

I didn’t wake up until after 7! Oops! I have been cranking out lots of hours at work and I’ve been a little stressed. I see the late wake up as my body needing a little extra rest.

Today I tutored the elementary aged siblings and we played two riveting rounds of BINGO at the end of the lesson.

The boy child won and chose a pink necklace as his prize. The girl child looked on with a sadness and disappointment that I didn’t expect.

Having worked with children before, I knew that they can be REALLY overdramatic. Perhaps they get it from their parents.

The boy child gave her a devilish grin and put the necklace around his neck. She looked at me and said, “Can I have the purple one?”

I kindly replied, “No, he won, so he gets the prize.” She looked over at the pink necklace with longing eyes.

The boy child then takes it off, and slides it across the table.

“I got it for you! Duh!” He exclaims. Aww! How sweet! I just want to give him a hug for being such a nice brother.

She puts it on and coldly replies, “Thanks.”

I began to talk up the boy child, saying “Oh what a lovely brother he is!” thinking she would cheer up a bit. But then, I looked in her eyes and I saw a little piece of myself staring back at me.

Her brother giving her the necklace WAS a nice gesture.

But do you know what she really wanted?

The VICTORY

The DOLLAR STORE SPOILS

The BRAGGING RIGHTS

The HONOR OF BINGO CHAMPION

Him giving her the necklace was almost a slap to her perfect little face, which continued to remain contorted in displeasure as we played the second round of BINGO and he won again.

I didn’t laugh, and I managed to not make any faces while I packed up to leave. But, I really wanted to pat her on the head, in a loving, non-demeaning way, and say, “It’s going to be all right kid. One day, that’ll be life sitting across the table from you kicking your ass and you won’t know up from down. And life won’t pick the pink necklace just so it can give it to you later. Life is going to pick up the heaviest turd and hurl it at you. And you know what? In that moment, you’ll learn how to keep going.”

Those are the things I wanted to say, to her and her familiar feeling little ego.

My own ego is much older and maybe a bit more intense, but we, me and my ego, are learning to get along just fine.

Until tomorrow, my friends…

PS…do you have kids? Are the monsters? Kidding!

6:08 AM

Is my body getting the hang of things?

Waking up at 6:08 am was a really good time for me. It wasn’t miserably early, but it was early enough to feel accomplished just by getting out of bed at such an early hour.

Just to recap (in case you’re just starting to read my blog), I am challenging to get out of bed whenever my body naturally wakes up, unless it is before 5:30 am. If it’s before 5:30 am, I am giving my permission to try to fall back to sleep.

I absolutely hate the alarm clock. Even though I do naturally wake up at a somewhat decent hour, when I worked a more “regular” job, I used the alarm clock every day. Being jolted awake to the sound of a noisy machine is kind of traumatic, wouldn’t you agree?

I am being a little dramatic, but I still believe it’s true.

I don’t want to be awakened to the sound of anything. I want to just wake up and get on with things, at least on most days.

My day was SUPER BUSY. I began working almost immediately. I then had an appointment, then another appointment, then came back home to work more, then went to tutor. By the time I got back home again, I had almost forgotten to eat dinner and was / am super tired.

I ended up eating some fast food from Wendy’s and guess what? I found not one, but TWO extra chicken nuggets at the bottom of the bag. SCORE!

Also, today a nice lady told me that I have a lovely speaking voice. I do not believe that about myself, but it was very nice to hear that someone else enjoys the sound of my voice.

I also met a good friend for lunch and talking to her made me feel very NORMAL. It is a really lovely feeling to feel normal when you usually feel like, “Am I the only insane person?” <–Turns out, I’m not! How great!

I met a new tutoring client today and she seems lovely. I’m looking forward to working with her in the future.

But for now, I’ve rambled on, and I know that this is not my best writing. I’m off to bed, another victim of another very busy day.

How was your day? Are you going through a busy spell in your life?

Until tomorrow, my friends…

4:04 AM

Day 2 of the 5 day Get Outta Bed Challenge was actually a CHALLENGE.

This morning, I woke up at 4:04 AM. Yes, you read that right. That’s not a typo.

Based on the previous rule that I set for myself, I tried to go back to sleep, since it was before 5:30 am. I was unsuccessful.

So, at about 5:40 am, I got out of bed and went downstairs. I was miserable. When I am tired, I yawn a lot (newsflash!) but I also  feel like a weird amount of heat in my body and head, like I have a fever. It’s very strange, but I feel it every time I am tired. I guess it’s my brain working overtime to wake up, wake up.

I drank a mason jar full of cold water and sat on the couch. I didn’t really know what else to do. It was SO EARLY and I desperately wanted to go back to sleep.

I sat there until I decided to turn on the computer. I watched a few mindless Buzzfeed videos until my brain was a little more awake. I then poured myself a bowl of those healthy, but bland, Whole Foods brand cheerios. I had it with almond milk and pecans; a possibly vegan breakfast for a definitely half dead zombie person.

Eventually, I sat down at my desk, about an hour later. I began to work. I have ZERO IDEAS that early in the morning, unless the ideas are about going back to sleep. I was committed to staying awake, however. I eventually drank a cup of Lady Grey tea.

I plowed through work until about 9:30 am when sleep came back around the corner. I was like a large brick that someone threw from a building; I crashed and thudded against the ground with a quick and certain weight. My eyes wouldn’t stay open; I fell back asleep for 90 minutes, sprawled across the bed, still wearing my robe, feet mostly dangling from the bed.

After the before noon power nap, I worked more, then made a salad with salmon. I knew I couldn’t eat much carbs or sugar, or else I’d end up back asleep.

The rest of the afternoon was uneventful and my body adjusted. It was nice. But now, tomorrow I will have to catch up a bit on some work and hopefully my body will be more aware of all the work I have to do and my deadlines.

But, to be honest, my body just usually does what it does, and I am at its whims and wishes.

Here’s to hopes that I sleep past 4:04 am tonight!

Until tomorrow, my friends…

 

Oh, P.S. here are two photos that I took, one looking out the window before the sun came up and the other shortly after the sun rose. This was a nice part of being up so early.

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6:58 AM

Today was day 1 of my 5 day Get Outta Bed Challenge.

I naturally woke up at 6:58 am.

This was not as horrible as I was anticipating. I thought I would wake up at exactly 5:31 am, but my body was kinder to me than I expected.

I did want to stay in bed, of course. I slept with the room a little warmer, but with lighter bed coverings, so I was just the right temperature. If I am too cold, then of course I don’t want to get out of bed. If I am too hot, then sleeping is a miserable fight.

I hit the Goldilocks sweet mine last night. I fell asleep quickly and slept soundly, sans nightmares featuring movie stars.

My morning ritual includes the following:

  1. Tinkle
  2. Weighing myself
  3. Putting on robe and slippers
  4. Boiling water for tea
  5. Checking emails
  6. Consuming tea

Today, doing all of those things only cost me about 15 minutes, which meant it was before 7:30 am when I started to work. It was kind of wondrous.

By 9:00 am, I had edited an Excel file, edited a PowerPoint file, written a stellar, but concise email, checked all of my personal emails, and browsed through Anthropologie. I even had enough energy to resist the urge to buy something from Anthro. Talk about a winning morning!

I feel like the rest of my day was good, too. I was energetic, even though I didn’t take any vitamins or B12 tablets until about 2:00 pm. I don’t drink coffee and I only had 2 cups of tea today.

We are off to the races!

What’s your favorite morning ritual? Tell me in the comments section below!

Until tomorrow, my friends…