Have you ever been to the doctor all by yourself? Maybe for a check up or for something more serious?
In my opinion, it’s not the greatest feeling in the world, but it’s one that I know very, very well.
I can’t remember how I felt, as a child, when my momma would take me to the doctor. I am willing to bet, however, that I wasn’t as grateful as I should have been.
Going to the doctor for any reason at all kind of sucks. I am very thankful to have easy access to medical care, but is there a place I can go get easy access to the emotional support that I sometimes need before or after an appointment?
The obvious answer is to ask a friend or family member, but who wants to be a big ass whiner and ask for company to go to the doctor? Especially when you’re old enough to drive yourself and have the funds to pay your own co-pay?
Today, I went to the “doc in a box” to get my insect bites checked out. Thankfully, my foot did not fall off over night and the doctor said I was fine and sent me on my way with some itch medicine.
As I sat there, just looking around, trying to read the pamphlets without actually touching one (because flu season), I realized that I wasn’t feeling sad or lonely. I felt like I was doing something routine by going to the doctor alone.
This realization made me feel an odd mix of relief (yay for not feeling lonely) and concern (have I lost touch with a part of my emotions? Is another one of my interpersonal needs slipping away?).
I was called back into the examination room before I could figure it out and I still have no idea, as of this entry.
What do you think?
Until tomorrow, my friends…